Long lunch with a good friend who inspires with her enthusiasm, hard work and general brilliance followed by a long dinner with coworkies who needed a good home-cooked meal and a nice glass of Georgian wine.
the nights are getting later and the justifications are getting thinner. blood pressure rises, grey hairs increase and motivation wanes…
bbc, al jezeera, cnn—all the outlets are convinced it’s a story already concluded. politics inside and out runeth amok.
so why? when efforts are never enough, methods misunderstood, and ulcers are on the horizon?
because there are stories that need to be told and rights that are worth advocating for.
because it’s not about raising my voice but elevating theirs.
because all this isn’t really for the higher ups, it’s for the highest up.
because success isn’t measured by validation, but by people whose lives have been made even just a little better.
i know i’m not the only one—or the most effective one—and it’s not on me. but it’s still important to lend even a whisper to the groundswell rumbling for change.
and really, is there anything else i’d rather be doing?
an alternative to the ampersand,
“BUT" begins benignly.
Cautiously conspiring with commas—
debuting doubt and diluting defined determinations.
Examining edifice and exposing exuberance as “error”,
finally fulminating the Future as folly.
Gathering groups of gawkers and
hushing hope as hinderance,
it interrogates inspiration as ignorance.
"Just jump?" — a jolly joke, jes?
"Keep knocking to know King and Kingdom??
Mentally mauled, my mind meanders and
numbing ninjas nimbly neutralize Nerve.
Offered oblivion I
pleasurably partake and passively permit par performance.
Quests are quieted and quit.
"Rest" and "Relaxation" are renewed as Rex and
Self-satisfaction sits superior to struggle, surrender, or sacrifice.
Though…there’s that tender Thought — terrified…but trying to take up temerity.
Undercutting umbrage and unexpectedly unearthing Understanding that
voraciously vies for validity —
willing me to wonder and wrestle with what I want — what I will work to welcome?